look what happened

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling
and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it, too
Doesn't means that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes

You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye

it's been a while..

Foolish girl, I thought I'd be so lost without her.
Adolescence left to wither, I didn't have a choice,
it was me or her silly boy.
She's love drunk, She's blinded,
she's about to lose the ones who love her most,
and she's the one that chose.

And it's happened once again

I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan
But she's far gone,
And I ' v e b e e n h e r e f o r t o o l o n g
Time to face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up.

And maybe I'll see you
at a movie sneak preview
You'll show up and walk by
on the arm of that g u y
And I'll smile and you'll wave
we'll pretend it's okay(but it's not)
The c H a R a D e it won't last
when he's gone I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
You'll try and turn to a friend
Someone that understands

But everybody's gone (it's your fault)
And you've been there for too long
time to face this on your own
time to grow up.

Child's Play

Don't we all wish we could go back to childhood, when days that lasted as many as twenty do now? Before fear, money, economics, lusts, and peers controlled our every motive, and thought. We never thought some of our closest friends would get pregnant, drink alcohol, or do drugs. When we thought we'd be best friends forever, and have nothing come between us. When drama was not being able to have slumber parties, or losing crayons. Now it's losing virginity, sex, who has the coolest car, and who has the most attractive boyfriend. Unfortunately, childhood was a promise never kept. Now that we've all grown up, the colors that once painted our world, that lifted our hopes, that made darkness colorful is now gone. It seems as if growing up is a never ending plague, and the older we get the worse it seems. I wish I would have known then what I do now, and would have taken my time to enjoy my innocent days, and take my time to grow up. I'm turning 18 tomorrow, and all of the responsibilities I will shortly be coming into, have stricken my mind. College, Career, Getting Married,LIFE. I'm an adult now, and I'm scared knowing that today is the day I start my grown-up life.

On the Inside

watching terrible TV
it kills all thought
getting spacier than
an ASTRONAUT
making out with people
i hardly know or like
i can't believe what i do
late at night

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
i see the beauty above

only when we get to see
the aerial view
will the patterns show
we'll know what to do
i know the last page so well
i can't read the first
so i just don't start
it's getting worse

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
standing at the gates
i see the beauty above

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
can't find my way in
i try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
always under or above
i can't find my way in
i try again and again
I'm on the outside of love
always under or above
must be a different view
to be a me with a you

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
standing at the gates
i see the beauty above

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
of course I'll be alright
i just had a bad night
i had a bad night

i named my blog after this
wonderful song (: it really
put words to a lot of what
I've been feeling lately.
it's great.